Nook

i walked through sands
deserts deserted
no hands in winds firmly holded
fooled my mirages of hopes n desires
i continued walking
vn sun was at fires
but every day as my ordeal ended
black sheet with shining miracles appeared
the stars oh lit in milky white
u shone in them my mentor bright
walikng barefotted on sands red lava
the joy of oasis awaited made me move
a holy spirit angelic saved me from doom
n then raided by mirages n fears
i followed only omens u told me to hear
moving on
i reached far ahead
a holy gospel an apostle
i met..........
nonetheless it was my own soul indeed
purity n efforts had
made it serene
n there i had attained my aim..........
to move on not stop
not for ne1 ne fame .....................
the jooy lies beneath jus lettin all go
n waiting to see does it return to you........
yet moving all n playin ur part
trying to fight destiny yet following its path..........

namaskar
hum sabne yeh suna hai padha hai mehsus bhi kiya hai........
Desh barat matribhoomi shabh lekin aaj kyu mano kahin kho se gaye hai...
kyu hindi spashta bolne aur ucharan karne mien hum saksham nahi reh gaye hai...............

Kya aaj hum din mein ek pal bhi ...is desh ya iski sanskriti ko naman kar yaad kar pate hai........
kyu hum hindi ka prayoog karne mien sharmate hai...
kyu hum apne desh apni pehnave se dur ja rahe hai.....
shayad yeh sab banavati aur upri taye ki aur aakharshit ho kar apne sarvasva ki sachahyi se pare ja rahe hai..............
kyu hum apna bhavishya desh mien nahi dekh pate

" api svarnamayi lanka , na mien lakshman rochate
janani janm bhoomishch svargadapi gariyasi"

Meri martibhoomi svaarg ke samman hai
is ehsaas ko humien vapas apni sadi mien lautana hai

hum sabne yeh gana suna hoga ise aaj rashtirya dhwaj ko yaad rakh kar ek baar padhe shayad
bhuli bisri yaadoin mine kahin tirange ka khoya astitva jhalakta dikhega

yeh jo des hi tera
swades hai tera
tujhe hai pukara.........
yeh vo bandhan hai jo kabhi toot nahi sakta

mitti ki jo hai khushboo tu kaise bhulaega
tu chahe kahin jaye tu laut ke aayega
nayi nayi rahon mien
tujhse zindagi hai yeh keh rahi......
yu to saare sukh hai barse
par tu dur hai apne ghar se
aa laut chal tu ab deewane
jahan koi to tujhe apna maane
wahi des..............
yeh jo des hai tera.....

nayi nayi rahon mien
dabi dabi aahon mien
khoye khoye dil se tere koi yeh kahega
yeh jo des hai tera swades hai tera ..........
tujhe hai pukara

yeh pal hai vahi jis mien hai chupi
poori ek saadi, saari zindagi
tu na pooch raste mein kaahe
aaye hai is tarah dorahe
tu hi to hai raaho jo sujaye
tu hai to jo yeh bataye
jaaye to kis disha mien jaye
wahi des ...................
yeh jo des hai tera..............

hear ur heart
follow ur destiny
follow ur omens
once u decide to achieve ur destiny whole universe conspires for u to achieve it
pursue ur dreams
love neva bonds u from moving ahead if it does so it isn true love
all things r one
begginer's luck is always dere

but at the end nothin .............

did not get it all .............
infact m left with a heavy question mark over my level of undertsnading which now suddenly sems to petite to me which since three days when i had began reading the book ..........
i feel decepted ........as if the shephard was illusioned by god himself
y
the only question is y

i m now in a mental chaos .. not because i din get the story but because not gettin the end is making me pose doubts over something i have always trusted in thats my ability to percieve philosophy though i seem to kiddo kinda person who rarely puts her brain to use according to ppl i have a mind that observes everything thinks over it
looks at it with all its aspects n that was only thing i was proud of which now i feel isn dere in me ......... so m feeling as if my notions bout myself vr wrong if i don no myself proprerly how can in claim to know any one around me........May be this sounds too senseless to ne1 who reads cause may be according to sm 1 it may not be a matter big enough to be thoought over so very seriously but for sm1 who thinks too much this indeed is a matter big enough to be worried bout.............

m totaaly aa "?" rite now..............

hey m back
back means back to self

back to my blissful self.....

two days i i did not speak to ne1
i know its hard to believe for ppl who know me but
" Women are unpredictable"
n m a real one ..........

neways .......................

Other day i realised smthin thats truth n most of us deny to accept...
....

I was frustrated and angry with every single indiviusual around me..
i had a complaint to make to all
i had a notion bout how all shd behave n abide by
how they shd make amendements in themselves n that all vr hypocrites..
n then i felt strong hatred for all due to sm reason or other..
n with god that y he was with them who decepted the wor;d with fake
appearences n phoney personalities....
But its he who listens n is always dere he is .. like an invisible force ..
I have recently started beieving a lot he loves us all equally...
I was distressed n felt strongly dejected n abominated.....
so much so that i cd not smile tryin hardest .. cd do nothing..
them disguised in one of my friends form he came to me handed me smthin tthat cd make me drift away from this feeling of disgust..contempt and detestation towards all...

I was given the book
The Alchemist .. read it till page 45 and then with same feeling of hatred i slept..
n then when i woke up after half of my day today went in grumblig i don no y had a smile n since then i m same old parul back again
doin all stupid naughty stuff troubling ppl eatin their heads
tokin nonsense to make ppl laugh on myself.. n enjoying it all

sm points i learnt form it all may be wd be imp to all who smtimes feel it with in self...

1: read it on a door poster in hostel corridoor

" If u like ppl , ppl will like you "

2: neva think how ppl r think how u shd be
every one has an idea how oda ppl shd lead their lives but bout
their own

3: love yourself the most and so love all
because when u hate all you can not be happy n when u love urself
u wd neva want urself to be sad

4: smile is the best way u can make ur enemy feel disgusted n
distresssed so greet biggest enemy with most gleeful smile u cn
give

5: despair and negativitism kills u neva let it dominate when
things r not fine

6: All things r one ----" the Alchemist"

7: Learn to recognize the omens and folow them--" the Alchemist"
and everythin when looke at with a fre mind and happy heart seems
to be an omen

8: Believe in beginer's luck

9:"What is the world's greatesr lie"

the world's greatest lie is that at a certain poin in life we loose control on what's happening to us and our lives become controlled by fate

10: its not tough to stick to your decisions when u know what ur values are

11: Finally what i feel is

" take ur decisions urself and let urself decide what ur destiny is and follow it and make it believein it that

once u

finally this is rite now philosphical self...
not very much of me he he he

kahin kuch tuta awaaz na aayi
sannata tha phir bhi kisi ko na aayi

fariyaad ki thi par darkar na hui
in suni aankhon mein mien roshni na hui]

sailaab sa tha sulag raha tha
daman annsuon se bhar raha tha
rajnigandha jo mehakte they kabhi
aaj jevan mien sunapan ki cha raha tha

jhilon ki lehre muskurahato ka sabab thi
ab unhi ki gehrai chubhne lagi thi

aate jaate sab chlate gaye
hum vahi kuch der ruk gaye

un palon ko bhula nahi pa rahe they
hum unhi mien jiye ja rahe they

humne bhi der se hi sahi sach ko jana
dard hua par use mana

chalna hi zindagi hai
un yaadon ko samete ke hum chal rahe hai
kahin kami hai
uska khalipan seh rahe hai..........